Sunday, January 27, 2008
one more thing...
I also want to share with you a highlight of my week. I went in to speak with a professor and ask for a recommendation to Ecuador, and it ended up being an amazing conversation of faith. He had similar stories of the decisions one has to make while in school and in life, and by the end of the conversation he had revealed to me that he was also a Christian. It was so great because it opened up our speech to really say what was on our minds. I have never experienced this connection with any advisor or professor on campus and it was such an exciting thing.
trying to write...
Tonight I saw Blood Diamond with two of my friends. It is a powerful movie which made me weap at the end. I was not just crying, but more like convulsing because of the pain and hell so much of this world goes through. Movies, writings, and experiences often bring me to this state of mind as I am sure they do to many people. Reality can be a horrible thing.
My post is titled "trying to write" because I internalize so much of what I feel about these matters of corruption and injustice. I internalize it so much that I do not know how to put words to my thoughts. Someone at Stone Soup today told me I should write a book; I don't think he meant anything by it or maybe he did, but in any event it has inspired me to at least be more diligent in expressing my thoughts publicly. You will have to excuse my rambles and nonsense as I use this blog to talk out loud.
Lately, I have been feeling really weighed down by this world. I know it is not perfect, and I am beginning to see that more and more. I feel held back by society and its rules/expectations, but who am I to complain because I live in a nation where I am safe to walk the streets, to say what I want, and to believe what I want. I have freedom or as much freedom as you can have on this Earth. What am I supposed to do with that freedom? How can I be of service? How can I make sure that my life is not wasted and that my resources and support are not given to me in vain?
I am not sure the answers to those questions, and as I mentioned in the previous blog I am for the first time without a plan. I have ideas of course, but I know that right now I am inadequate to follow through with any of them. Life is a process, and one that needs to be given to me with God's timing. He knows when I can handle certain facts and when I can best succeed at something. I trust He will lead the way because He has written it to be true.
It is a bit scary putting these thoughts to words I now realize because with that comes a greater responsibility. I don't want to be known as someone who just talked, but I want to follow up my convictions with action. Although I am unsure of how I sound to those who are reading this, but I hope you can hear the sincerity I have as I write. My words aren't light, but fill my mind daily. There is hope though, and I know that there is good amongst all the bad; there is light in the darkness.
My post is titled "trying to write" because I internalize so much of what I feel about these matters of corruption and injustice. I internalize it so much that I do not know how to put words to my thoughts. Someone at Stone Soup today told me I should write a book; I don't think he meant anything by it or maybe he did, but in any event it has inspired me to at least be more diligent in expressing my thoughts publicly. You will have to excuse my rambles and nonsense as I use this blog to talk out loud.
Lately, I have been feeling really weighed down by this world. I know it is not perfect, and I am beginning to see that more and more. I feel held back by society and its rules/expectations, but who am I to complain because I live in a nation where I am safe to walk the streets, to say what I want, and to believe what I want. I have freedom or as much freedom as you can have on this Earth. What am I supposed to do with that freedom? How can I be of service? How can I make sure that my life is not wasted and that my resources and support are not given to me in vain?
I am not sure the answers to those questions, and as I mentioned in the previous blog I am for the first time without a plan. I have ideas of course, but I know that right now I am inadequate to follow through with any of them. Life is a process, and one that needs to be given to me with God's timing. He knows when I can handle certain facts and when I can best succeed at something. I trust He will lead the way because He has written it to be true.
It is a bit scary putting these thoughts to words I now realize because with that comes a greater responsibility. I don't want to be known as someone who just talked, but I want to follow up my convictions with action. Although I am unsure of how I sound to those who are reading this, but I hope you can hear the sincerity I have as I write. My words aren't light, but fill my mind daily. There is hope though, and I know that there is good amongst all the bad; there is light in the darkness.
Friday, January 18, 2008
it's been a long time...
Hello again - So sorry for the long delay. I will not write a lot as of now because it would take pages to recap all that has been happening since September! However, I am doing well. I am in my second week of Winter term and it has been so eventful.
I am President of Mortar Board National Honor Society, and we are fairly busy. Right now we are doing a bookdrive to raise money for books for a few local elementary and middle school classes. We also are beginning our application process for the next year, discussing next year's student planner (the one I designed last year), and having dialog on how to form a scholarship for a couple incoming students. It has been such good leadership experience to reorganize this club and implement new ideas to help the legacy of it.
Last term I began the preliminary steps to begin my undergraduate thesis. I will be stepping into the field of medical anthropology and it is sending me on a whirlwind of new ideas and information I never knew existed. I have increasingly become interested in other cultures and the world outside of the US, although sometimes to my parents and other family's dismay. As always I am very concerned about my family's interest and support in my life as it is what has gotten me thus far and I am forever grateful. I am however really excited about this time in my life, especially the opportunity to explore new things. I feel like my education is getting more personal. I am taking a more active role in my Spanish class and personal efficiency of the language, and I have been seeking time with my professors and contacts in the professional world to learn more of the direction I would like to take.
I hope you all received my letter about Brazil; it was an amazing trip and the effect it has had is unexpectantly large because it also has a part of the previous paragraph. I always pray that I will be an effective person for people and society. I can't thank God enough for His grace and protection.
love and peace to you.
I am President of Mortar Board National Honor Society, and we are fairly busy. Right now we are doing a bookdrive to raise money for books for a few local elementary and middle school classes. We also are beginning our application process for the next year, discussing next year's student planner (the one I designed last year), and having dialog on how to form a scholarship for a couple incoming students. It has been such good leadership experience to reorganize this club and implement new ideas to help the legacy of it.
Last term I began the preliminary steps to begin my undergraduate thesis. I will be stepping into the field of medical anthropology and it is sending me on a whirlwind of new ideas and information I never knew existed. I have increasingly become interested in other cultures and the world outside of the US, although sometimes to my parents and other family's dismay. As always I am very concerned about my family's interest and support in my life as it is what has gotten me thus far and I am forever grateful. I am however really excited about this time in my life, especially the opportunity to explore new things. I feel like my education is getting more personal. I am taking a more active role in my Spanish class and personal efficiency of the language, and I have been seeking time with my professors and contacts in the professional world to learn more of the direction I would like to take.
I hope you all received my letter about Brazil; it was an amazing trip and the effect it has had is unexpectantly large because it also has a part of the previous paragraph. I always pray that I will be an effective person for people and society. I can't thank God enough for His grace and protection.
love and peace to you.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
tag you're it...
Melinda sent me this game. I am afraid it is going to bring out the nerdy side of me...
The Rules: 1. I have to post these rules before I give you the facts. 2. Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves. 3. People who are tagged need to write a post on their own blog (about their eight things) and post these rules. 4. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names. 5. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.
Random Facts: #1: In Jr. High I was known as the girl with tinted glasses. #2: I was 5th place in the state of Oregon for girl's high school bowling, but now w/ lack of practice don't claim to be a bowler #3: I am an only child. #4: I secretly (or not so secretly) would like to be a hippy; I like the eclectic, natural, and relaxed lifestyle. #5: I love to cross off things in my planner/to do list. #6: I have a sand collection...little pieces of the world. #7: I would say I am an adventurous eater. #8: I like to go to the doctor's office because it is always interesting to me.
Abdullah, Alan .. TAG, YOU'RE IT!!
I don't know many bloggers, but I will look for more people I konw.
The Rules: 1. I have to post these rules before I give you the facts. 2. Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves. 3. People who are tagged need to write a post on their own blog (about their eight things) and post these rules. 4. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names. 5. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.
Random Facts: #1: In Jr. High I was known as the girl with tinted glasses. #2: I was 5th place in the state of Oregon for girl's high school bowling, but now w/ lack of practice don't claim to be a bowler #3: I am an only child. #4: I secretly (or not so secretly) would like to be a hippy; I like the eclectic, natural, and relaxed lifestyle. #5: I love to cross off things in my planner/to do list. #6: I have a sand collection...little pieces of the world. #7: I would say I am an adventurous eater. #8: I like to go to the doctor's office because it is always interesting to me.
Abdullah, Alan .. TAG, YOU'RE IT!!
I don't know many bloggers, but I will look for more people I konw.
Sunday, September 2, 2007
horrible grammar...
I just went back and read some blogs I have previously written, and I was appalled! My grammar is not very good at all. I quickly write what is on my mind and miss the proofreading step. This is unfortunate because then you all have to read run-on sentences, punctuation errors, and misplaced words. Honestly, I really am a college student, and I do know how to write! Sorry, and I will try to do better :).
Saturday, September 1, 2007
how...
Does anyone know how I can add that special Links feature, so I can keep posted on others blogs?
summer...
Hmm, what have I been doing lately? Most of the time it is just a blur, but I will try to remember. I have been still doing school....one more week of anatomy, then I get a two week break! Things are picking up with Mortar Board, and I am just trying to pull things together for the first of the year. I am so excited be leading a group like this, and am especially excited to be working with certain people in the group. I met with my friend Kyung for coffee the other day. She is the VP of Mortar Board, so I imagine we will be spending a lot of time together, and I knew her from 2:42. Anyhow, it was so great to talk to her because it is encouraging to have a believer headed in the same direction (med school) as me; we were really able to relate about the struggles we face in this pre-profession.
That same day I lucked out and got a ticket to the first football game of the year!! Those of you who know me at all, probably also know that I get easily bored with things like sports, or movies...it may be a downfall of mine. However, I was really excited to go to a friend's tailgater, and see a lot of friends at the game that I haven't seen in awhile. I realized I get really distracted in big crowds; somehow I missed a ten minute pause in the game for a broken leg that happened to the other team! How can someone miss that?!
Last night, after what seemed like fate not wanting us to go (late anatomy lab, lost cell phones, gas stations with technical problems, etc.), my friends Jen, Brock, and I went up to a college church group in Portland called the Way. There was a concert/guest worship artist we went to see. It was good to be amongst so many other people worshiping God together. After that I got so energized because I once again got to see a lot of people I hadn't in awhile, but had a hard time holding a conversation because I was so excited/distracted by all the people. Haha it was a lot of fun though, and we went to Red Robin where I was actually able to talk with everyone. I need to take more pictures so I can remember these times.
Today, I went to Body World 3 at OMSI. It was pretty cool, especially after a summer of anatomy. Did I mention only one more week of school?!! Hurray!
That same day I lucked out and got a ticket to the first football game of the year!! Those of you who know me at all, probably also know that I get easily bored with things like sports, or movies...it may be a downfall of mine. However, I was really excited to go to a friend's tailgater, and see a lot of friends at the game that I haven't seen in awhile. I realized I get really distracted in big crowds; somehow I missed a ten minute pause in the game for a broken leg that happened to the other team! How can someone miss that?!
Last night, after what seemed like fate not wanting us to go (late anatomy lab, lost cell phones, gas stations with technical problems, etc.), my friends Jen, Brock, and I went up to a college church group in Portland called the Way. There was a concert/guest worship artist we went to see. It was good to be amongst so many other people worshiping God together. After that I got so energized because I once again got to see a lot of people I hadn't in awhile, but had a hard time holding a conversation because I was so excited/distracted by all the people. Haha it was a lot of fun though, and we went to Red Robin where I was actually able to talk with everyone. I need to take more pictures so I can remember these times.
Today, I went to Body World 3 at OMSI. It was pretty cool, especially after a summer of anatomy. Did I mention only one more week of school?!! Hurray!
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